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Thursday, March 29th, 2007
1:45 am	All Done. I will be deleting the friends attached to this account along with the blogs in a week or so. I only log in for a gossip blog. It's not worth it for me to even keep this. Aside from when some crazy bitches have to lock a post in ONTD. This is the last of InitialC. My site is gone. The e-mail and IMs are dead and gone. I leave only with good memories - which are rather clouded with alcohol and the bad ones I do not care for. Life is too short. I have to enjoy it while I am still able to. Good luck everyone. I hope life treats you well and you move on to better and greater things. Current Music: Mika
Friday, August 12th, 2005
9:44 pm	so long Live Journal. I have decided with my impending move to stop posting on LJ as InitialC. It's not that I don't enjoy it, but I am letting, more than anything, "initialc" go. I don't hate LJ and I will probably have another one, but 'initialc' is over and done with. InitialC was sort of an era. And now it just doesn't mean that much anymore. I got rid of my e-mail and my website. It's over. I will cherish the memories of when it was good and forget the bad. I wish everyone well and to those who need to contact me, you know how. Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)
Monday, August 8th, 2005
9:53 am	last day in Nevada... so weird up here at the parents, my skin has NEVER looked this good without any maintenance... gambled a little yesterday... the highlight was grandma bitching about the slow service in the restaurant we were at... the place was PACKED to the brim... the service was great, but the food took forever... but i had a beer so i was content... saw the "Queer as Folk" finale... and honestly i expected it to end that way... because the heart and soul of the show is Michael and Brian... those 2 dancing together at the end... i lost it. granted it was Brian dancing alone on the podium, but that was him... but before that... it was all about the friendship that was Brian and Michael. sweet. now off to the drive home. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: QAF soundtrack (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 6th, 2005
11:53 am	a sad little ray of sunshine... there's this little girl i know... she loves me and i adore her... she found out i was moving and started crying... this little 4 year old soul was sitting in her car seat with her bottom lip sticking out and crying because i was moving... did i think she would react like that? hell no. and it broke my heart into a million pieces. for that moment, i thought of staying in town and not moving. for this little girl who is not mine. i tried to fix the situation by saying she can visit me when she goes to Disneyland... but then she went straight back into the moving bit and i had to go back to work... and with teary eyes, she blew kisses at me... wow. she made my uterus hurt. now in a completely different subject, i went to the bar that my Dad works in and a few of the old drunk patrons thought i was his girlfriend... weird drunk military folk! but we had a few rounds paid by everyone when they heard i was Daddy's daughter and we had a good ole time... except for the guy who was pissed at California because "only judges can get concealed weapon permits"... weird old Nevada military folk! later y'all... gonna try to get into Reno tonight... Hot August Nights and a shitload of people! Current Mood: content Current Music: cool - Gwen (Comment on this)
Friday, August 5th, 2005
9:28 am	off to visit the parents! taking a few days to spend with them and my grandma before i move... hopefully my cousins will meet me in Reno for Hot August Nights and maybe hang with some old friends a stuff... it will be nice and HOTTER THAN FUCKING HELL. then, pretty soon i am out of here. happening so fast. i don't think i have been this happy in a long fucking time... and i am pretty content and happy with myself... i think this time it feels like i don't have to be ashamed of it... be well everyone. stay inside with the air con... :) Current Mood: happy Current Music: Jessica Simpson - with you (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 26th, 2005
5:30 pm	a feeling. in light of moving and letting people and shit go... i can't wait to be near him. i think about him all the time. this could be it. i. can't. wait. and this weekend can't come soon enough. Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Friday, July 22nd, 2005
5:55 pm	another busy day bites the dust. meeting up with friends all weekend... which is cool, but exhausting with work... talked to my parents and i have to drive up some dining chairs to their house. i am not excited about this, but i have a few friends in Reno that asked me to visit, so i will do that on the way to the parentals... too much is going on and not enough time... just want to take a moment and rest. some Netflix came today and i might watch one of the movies before i go out, "Bride and Prejudice"... love that hottie Martin whateverhislastnameis. that's about it. haven't heard from my Aiden in a while, but my Mr. Big is giving me a computer for my new place... and he's going to help paint it, too... woot! have a good weekend! Current Mood: content Current Music: Jordis ROCK STAR version "The Reason" (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 14th, 2005
8:19 pm	woot. the only good thing about inventory is the spread. other than that, suckage. but on to good things... HOCKEY! i think with my move i might get tickets for the LA Kings. gotta see if my roomie might want to go... i know her boss might be a fan (why wear a Kings shirt, right?) and if he has tickets that might be an in for some games as well... still haven't decided on when to move... but my transfer papers are in and it's just a matter of time. that's about it. can't wait to leave this place... start something new. Current Mood: content Current Music: hollywood - Madonna (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 9th, 2005
8:51 pm	things are set! so the move is coming up... totally did not expect things to go as smooth as they did! moving in with 2 girls who are in the television industry... so it might be interesting... left for L.A. for my birthday and proceeded to have a blast... hung out at a televison studio and then got to see another in the beginning stages... pretty cool! met a few people here and there and it just seems like it's going to be a good move for me... so much to do and it's SO WEIRD to even think of considering a change in careers! it will be completely hard at first, but i think i am going to do great... i already have so much planned to do by myself that i am completely cool with it all... plus, i think i fell in love with a new bar. :) have a great weekend! Current Mood: creative Current Music: RENT (Comment on this)
Monday, July 4th, 2005
7:34 pm	Happy 4th! my high school ex's dad came in at work today and then came back to give me his address and phone number... i thought it was really cool... i really got along with his parents and Ike and i were pretty good friends through high school... we lost touch about 3 years ago and i hear he's getting married and his dad says they love people visiting... when i go see my parents, i'm going to give him a ring... i was really hoping his fiancee was the one he was talking about a few years ago... but i guess i was wrong. last time i saw him he told me about this girl that he ADORED... when i found out about his engagement, i thought it would be cool if it was her... it isn't... but it would have been cool... awesome how his dad came back with his info for me... :) Ike and i would talk about how we would probably keep in touch when we were old and gray and shit... i hope we do. no real plans for tonight. might hang out with a friend, but i might sleep, too. i have no idea. going away this week to visit a few friends and make a decision on where to move... a new place popped up and now everything is changing... AGAIN. oh well. be safe. :) Current Mood: happy Current Music: one (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 29th, 2005
5:47 pm	to my former friends... to reiterate something i wrote... it's okay that i am not friends with certain people. just as they are okay not being friends with me. my world isn't going to end and i hope their's won't as well... we just move on and for me i hope that they are happy. that's what we all hope for. hate or dislike me all you want... it is apparent we were not intended to understand each other as much as we thought, but i can't help but wish the best for you all... we are (probably) better off without each other and it took some miscommunication and fighting to get there... it's not pretty... it hurts... but if that's what it takes, then so be it... our sides will never match... and maybe it's because we perceived it differently and maybe our friendships never really delved into that... it's sort of sad what we mistook as real and deep, to go away so fast and swiftly, but what do we do? naturally we move on. Current Mood: content
Wednesday, June 22nd, 2005
1:40 pm	jealousy is a bitch. sometimes i wish i was a small boobied lesbian so when i hang out with ANY FUCKING MALE, it won't be construed as me wanting them... Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 19th, 2005
7:21 pm	at least my daddy loves me. a lot of shit has gone down in the last few days... and i put some things in perspective... there's too many to list, but i'll mention one thing, it's okay to step back and just tune into yourself. i love you Jerry. Happy Father's Day. Current Mood: loved (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 14th, 2005
10:52 am	Three things taken from dragonshyne ( Three Things ) (Comment on this)
Monday, June 13th, 2005
10:36 am	parents are gone... i miss them! parents came and went... i really miss them, but i really hate the drive to their house... so when i move, i will fly instead... not much to do today... try to find a part time job to pay off a few things... figure out what to do with the truck... try to find another place if possible as a back up... i am feeling the itch to ditch town again... probably BBQ today... got some burgers! i miss talking to crappy ex, so hopefully we'll have time to talk tonight... allergies are kicking my ass... the cold morphed into the allergies... i missed "The 4400" and "The Dead Zone" last night because dad wouldn't give up the remote... so i went to bed... it was FREAKING HOT! had a bad dream... barely remember it... i was going to write it down, but forgot most of it before i could... gave me a bad feeling... i hate that. i need a snack... i am drained. Current Mood: hungry (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 9th, 2005
10:22 am	still battling this cold! my friend Joe-Dee has infected everyone... and i have infected everyone at work... but on the bright side, no smoking for one week! and i hang out with smokers! i think this time might work out since the key is to not detach yourself from your smoker friends, but to just say NO to socially doing it... and so far, so good... i didn't go out last night. my period is on and i am moody. well, not moody, but in a certain mood that leaves me unsocial... the "i hate people, but i like gatherings" sort of mood... this week has been pretty bizarre... James came up and made out with me... which freaked me out. after all that was done, i can say that i am not attracted to him anymore... sure he's great looking, fabulous body... but he's just a friend... and after we talked, i think we're back to that friendship that i really missed before his girlfriend killed it any way she could... i feel bad for her, but really, it's not my place to really give a shit... i care about James and i hope he finds happiness... with her or whatever... i just hope he doesn't sacrifice anymore of himself to do it... the other night i talked to crappy ex and it was a great convo... no matter how messed up his life turns out to be in certain points, he has this way of just making me smile and it's cool... he has this plan of just driving up and not telling me when he's coming... it'll never happen, he's cursed! but he'll try, i know that. gonna get ready for work. i have to start making my moving plan and maybe look into SoCal jobs if a transfer doesn't work out... i'mm still doing it... i am SO EXCITED! hey male, burger friday? maybe happy hour? if not, NEXT WEEK! my treat. Current Mood: cranky Current Music: amerie - Touch (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 5th, 2005
5:42 pm	i take 3 days off... and i am sick. crappy ex's grandma fell ill and so he didn't come up... i was pissed, but really, i have been sick since thursday... friends are coming over for a BBQ... it's pretty much a weekly thing now... one night at the boys, another at mine and another at Tony's... so 3 times a week - BBQ! still hacking up a lung here and there... i have some sort of infection with a bronchitis flare up... my inhaler is my friend... and i must try to salvage this weekend and at least wash my truck tomorrow... hope everyone is well. and watch "The 4400" on USA. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 1st, 2005
10:49 pm	wow. i am tired. i'm home for the first wednesday night in weeks... went out earlier to the street fair and decided i know way too many people to go to these things... left and right people we knew... it was cool at first, but there was 3 of us... then 5... then 7... then 9... we were a mess... i started getting cranky because with the thousands of people downtown, you would think they would get more porta potties and trash cans up in there... Joe-Dee and Boo-boo are a fantabulous couple now... i LOVE it... it's weird... they are attached at each other's hip... i can't do that... or at least i don't think i can... and the funny thing, i think i might see more of her since i hang out with Joe-Dee and B all the time... i quit smoking. i never did it too much to begin with, but i need to start biking and running... so time to build the lungs up... and of course, i get sick immediately... i hope this Airborne stuff works... crappy ex is supposed to be here all weekend... it he follows through, we're going to have a great time... if he doesn't... i am going to clean house! and Julie's got a hot male friend... bout time that hot girl got herself a hot guy! Current Mood: cranky Current Music: U2 - kite (Comment on this)
Monday, May 23rd, 2005
2:42 pm	busy weekend with friends... since crappy ex and i decided on another weekend to hang... (something about wanting to hang out more than one day... i only need him for one day! just kidding, he made complete sense...) i spent the majority of it with my boys... in full movie marathon mode... thank goodness i took a rest saturday night or else sunday would have been a complete wash... we had a lot of fun... we always do... felt bad for money B because this chick - we'll call her Debbie Downer - came by and she would be cool for a moment and do something completely assy for the rest of the time... but movie marathon still moved on... i recommended "Mean Creek"... i fell asleep during "I -heart- Huckabees"... and i already saw "Harold and Kumar..." so i went to bed... boys and i are going to try to BBQ tonight and break in the new BBQ we got... plus, i'm feeling the need for my Pocket Pal... and watching "Assault on Precinct 13"... toodles! Current Music: keane (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 19th, 2005
9:42 am	i have get-the-hell-out-of-town fever. crappy ex and i are planning a mini getaway this weekend... he wants to come up... i want to go down... hopefully we'll meet halfway so i don't hear him bitch about driving so much... but it has to happen... work is being a bitch... he's starting a new job... i just want a day away. and he does too... plus, i love hanging out with him. last night was fun... up until i wanted to go home. the place was thinning out and i just wanted to leave... but the boys were preoccupied with partying even more and i wanted to go home and chill... so i did... only because Joe-Dee was hanging around this chick that none of us like... and i just didn't want to be around her... she's like Debbie-Downer, but with a hot body according to the boys... she's just lame and i don't want to be around that kind of shit... all in all talked to Joe a bit and he's only cool naked without saying words... then there's this guy i see all the time when we go out... and he hugged me (did i know him?) and i felt penis. i hate that shit. Monica came out and i miss her big time... she's fun to hang with... D's psycho ex came and this time she didn't burp or make farting sounds (D must have been desperate)... that's about it. i work at another store on saturday and then i am getting the hell out of dodge. Current Mood: awake Current Music: don't cha - Pussycat Dolls (Comment on this)